Sleeping Baby

I don't know if this is a phase that every parent goes through but for the past month or so I can't get enough of Grayson.  I miss him when he is gone and surprisingly feel like I miss him even more when he is with me.  I try my best to still give him his space and myself my own time but in the hopes of acheiving balance during the day I have developed a not-so good habit at night. 

Every night since Grayson came home from the hospital I don't feel right about going to bed until I go in and check on him.  I would quietly sneak in and place my hands on his chest to make sure he was breathing.  This habit wasn't of a paticular concern as I'm sure lots of parents do the same thing.  But somewhere along the way I would spend a tad bit more time in there checking 2-3 times that he was still breathing; more than a few times rousing him a little bit so he would move so I could ensure that the slight up and down of his chest wasn't just my imagination.  But the last month I would say things have gotten a little out of control.  Nightly I go into his room and place my hands on his back/chest and stare at him for at least 10 minutes.  I wouldn't say that this is particularly abnormal but then it developed into not only touching him but taking him out of bed and rocking him.  Then I start to cry as I know I should put him back to bed and go to sleep myself.  Am I just losing it or do other people go through this?

I even take pictures of him while he sleeps... what's wrong with me??!?!!